Blog Beginning

So I'm starting this blog with the expectation you've already read the about page and know a little about me. 

I recently found out that I have Bipolar II. And surprisingly, to me, it actually made me relieved. It gives me a direction. It actually runs in my family. I never thought I had it though because I didn't get the manic highs. I do get the hypomania though. Although most of the time I'm actually in what's called a mixed state. That's when you experience the high and lows at the same time. So I can be anxious and depressed at the same time as being excited from something as an example. 

I've had health problems for years.

I have a thyroid that doesn't produce enough hormones.

I threw a blood clot that ended up in my right lung when my youngest was born.

Since 2010 I've dealt with chronic migraines. I literally do not know what it feels like to not have one. I've always got a throb in my head. It just varies in severity from day to day. Throughout the years I discovered that most of the time the severity increases as the day progresses. So I tend to schedule most of my things in the morning or early afternoon in order to be home and have access to my medications if need. I've got a pretty high pain threshold and I usually only have to take the Eletriptan and Naproxen once or twice a week.

I'm on a crap ton of medications for the migraine prevention, the thyroid issue, blood clot prevention, and depression/anxiety. The problem, besides hating taking all of the pills, is that most of the medications have a side effect of weight gain. Add in that I'm usually sick to my stomach from the migraines I don't eat much anyway. So my body goes into starvation mode and stores as much fat as it can. Meaning that at this moment I am about a hundred pounds overweight from where I should be given my age, height, and body structure. 

Frankly, I'm tired of being overweight. I used to be way more active than I have been for years. Part of that is the migraines and sensitivity to light. Part is the depression/anxiety that I now know is part of my Bipolar. Most exercise programs I hate. I came across Svelte training recently and I love it. I can get a workout in and it doesn't cut into a huge portion of my day. And I know it's working because my muscles are definitely crying. 

I haven't been happy in my marriage for almost a decade. So I'm taking time to work on me and figure out what I need to do to be happy. My happiness has to come from inside me and not from any outside source.

I'm also in the process of creating a course for entrepreneurs that deal with mental illness so they can enjoy the same success I have. I really want to make a difference in people's lives and lift them up. 

So I decided that I'd blog this whole process for anyone that's interested. I realize that opening myself up like this is probably going to make me lose some customers. But that's okay. Not everyone is going to like me. Not everyone is going to approve of my decisions or actions. That's okay. This is for me and my family. This is for those that are experiencing something similar so they know they aren't alone. I want you to know that you're okay being you. Not masks or hiding parts of you are needed. 

SO, welcome to you that this does resonate with. Pull up a chair and let's get to know each other. 

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